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[rosarianoath]

We wouldn’t. [It would be all too easy to just exist under her thighs, smothered along with his hurts.] So for now… we endure.

[noburden]

But this... this helps.

[Her, at least. She's happy to have him close, to hold and be held.]

[rosarianoath]

Good.

[He gives her another squeeze, and then relaxes a little.]

[noburden]

I've always been happy to be by your side.

[She's always loved him.]

I truly wish there was a way for you to understand how I see you. To see that you're enough.

[rosarianoath]

If I could slip inside your mind for even an hour, I’m sure I would.

[He lays his head back down.]

Until that’s possible… I’ll simply have to learn for myself.

[noburden]

And I will remind you in what ways I can.

[By talking, listening, or now reading--she resumes petting his hair, slowly ans affectionately.]

I would write it all down for you but I don't think enough ink exists, even here.

[rosarianoath]

[Founder, he can’t wait to fall asleep to the sensation of her fingers on his scalp.]

I’d be too self conscious to read more than a page or two anyhow…

[noburden]

[She hums softly.]

Then perhaps I can keep it to one page for you.

[rosarianoath]

I’ll cherish it forever. [He closes his eyes, heartbeat slowing as he relaxes.]

[noburden]

[She has no idea how to keep it to one page, but she wants to try for him. He should have something to keep, fond as he is of momentos.]

I hardly remember a time when you didn't occupy my heart.

[rosarianoath]

[The urge to kiss her is overwhelming, but there's so much work left to do before there can be distractions. He settles for breathing in deeply, feeling the soft squish of her body under his.]

I was fond of you from the first day. I used to dream about holding you like this just once before you were made a bride.

[noburden]

[She feels the urge, too. But they're behaving, and all she does is hug him tighter for a moment.]

I always hoped I would suddenly learn that I was to be your bride. I wanted to be your lady, by your side.

[rosarianoath]

Perhaps if, in a few more years, we'd both manifested as Dominants...

[But Joshua would have her first, most likely. It's an odd thought; not one he's ever had before, and not one he wants to dwell on very long. He says nothing.]

Maybe she would approve after all.

[noburden]

[They both know she'd likely be wed to Joshua were that the case. Still, she can pretend well enough, imagine a world in which they could have been together from the start.]

Three Dominants under one banner. Imagine.

[Wed to Clive or Joshua, Rosaria would be sitting pretty.]

[rosarianoath]

Rosaria would be an empire.

[As disgusting as it is unsettling. He gives a little huff, tired.]

I do not care to think on it.

[noburden]

Then think of something more pleasant before we sleep. Something about us.

[Surely he can think of a better fantasy.]

[rosarianoath]

[His mind feels like an ugly place, and surprisingly, it does not feel lighter simply for having been asked to be. He stews on it for a moment, and then asks:]

What would you like to do on our next date?

[noburden]

I'd like to go to a bookstore and find something for us to read together.

[Not THAT bookstore, but somewhere they can find a new book to sink into together. She says it with the hope that he'll come spend the night with her more often.]

We can get dinner somewhere and come back here. How does that sound?

[rosarianoath]

I like that. Sitting with you and a book is the perfect evening.

[He is already thinking about books. Joshua has him reading sci-fi. Maybe Jill would like that, too? It is far away from magic.]

On Thursday, perhaps? I won't go hunting.

[noburden]

Thursday it is. I'm reluctant to say it, but... I'm glad you've been going hunting less as of late. It's good to have you here.

[Where he should be.]

[rosarianoath]

Mm. [He’s been glad to be home, bored of the rote supply of monsters here, nothing bigger than twenty feet tall. But money is always a concern.] I wish I could hunt during the day just to be around here more.

[noburden]

Hunting isn't the only thing you're good at.

[Just give her a minute to think of other things he could do that are profitable.]

[rosarianoath]

This place has little use for soldiers or assassins.

[noburden]

Good that there's more to you than that, then.

[She pauses to kiss his head. He doesn't know, does he?]

If you could do anything, what would it be? Don't worry about money for now. Just think of what would make you feel happy, Clive.

[rosarianoath]

[He doesn’t at all. He stares into the shadows of her neck and the first answer that comes up is “sleep”, preferably in her arms. Finally:]

Perhaps I’d keep and train chocobos. And… eat a lot of food.